It was now, at an airport gate twenty five hundred miles away, or never. Not the best environment to have this discussion but it had to happen.

"I was terrified. Twenty years of a career with the State Department, and you learn to trust no one but yourself. Now I was involved with you, and I trusted you and was willing to keep trusting you, unconditionally? Terrifying."

It wasn't a good explanation for why he did what he did but it was there, "I pushed you away, and I'm sorry."